Saturday, October 11, 2008

Family Portrait

We have an appointment this coming Tuesday to have our family portrait done at our church. It is for our church's new directory.

We have not done a family portrait since 6/2006. Cedie was there. Those pictures still hang all around my house.

Before the 2006 portrait, we had a professional family portrait done at least twice a year, usually around Dylan's birthday and around Nov or Dec. Each time we had a new one done, those pictures would go in the frames already on the walls, replacing the previous portraits. Normal, right?

One of the reasons we haven't done a family portrait since Cedie's passing is that we did not want to replace those family portraits on the walls, as it has always been our tradition to do so. How can we go back to a picture of just three of us when, in our hearts, we are still a family of four?

Over the last year and a half, it has seemed to me that to take the step of having the "family" portrait made without her is equal to shouting to the world that she is not here, that we are once again just a family of three. Is this normal??

Dylan was 5 in the last portrait- he is almost 8 now. Chris and I probably look different as well. I know later in life we will appreciate having a picture of ourselves in 2008.

Now to figure out what we will wear...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008