We have an appointment this coming Tuesday to have our family portrait done at our church. It is for our church's new directory.
We have not done a family portrait since 6/2006. Cedie was there. Those pictures still hang all around my house.
Before the 2006 portrait, we had a professional family portrait done at least twice a year, usually around Dylan's birthday and around Nov or Dec. Each time we had a new one done, those pictures would go in the frames already on the walls, replacing the previous portraits. Normal, right?
One of the reasons we haven't done a family portrait since Cedie's passing is that we did not want to replace those family portraits on the walls, as it has always been our tradition to do so. How can we go back to a picture of just three of us when, in our hearts, we are still a family of four?
Over the last year and a half, it has seemed to me that to take the step of having the "family" portrait made without her is equal to shouting to the world that she is not here, that we are once again just a family of three. Is this normal??
Dylan was 5 in the last portrait- he is almost 8 now. Chris and I probably look different as well. I know later in life we will appreciate having a picture of ourselves in 2008.
Now to figure out what we will wear...
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I know if I was in your shoes I would have a hard time replacing those pictures also, I think I would be buying more fames so I can keep the ones of Cedie up.
I can not wait to see your new family portraits.
I am also glad to hear things are going well, your hair looks great. It also sounds like Dylan is doing well and the princess moon bounce story is so funny!!
Hugs,
Crystal and Eva
I agree with Crystal. You should start a new tradition of not taking your family pictures down. Maybe you could buy several similar frames and put up all your family portraits.
Is how you are feeling normal? I don't think I would feel much different than you do, but I think my idea of what "normal" is, is kind of skewed. One of my friends in P-2-P phrased it best when she said that "normal" is just a setting on the dryer.
Hugs,
Sarah
Oh I can only imagine the internal struggle you are/were facing. We love you our friends...and wish we could have all the answers. For now, just know that we are thinking of you and wishing you peace and comfort...especially during the holiday season.
Amy and Maxwell
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